theres a saying about everyone comes into your life for a reason right? then why, why did you come out of no where if i dont see a purpose in you being here after getting my hopes up even for a little bit? is this trying to teach me something because that was just bullshiiit. it makes me think about how its so hard for me to believe that anyone would ever think of me that way and how anyone would ever want to be with me period. am i really that ugly inside and out that im not special in anyones eyes, that they wouldnt feel so strongly about and just be happy around? everything happens for a reason but i dont get why this happened. i wish i could learn to be more independent where i dont need anyone to that extent. but thats my problem, i do. just why did you need to talk to me all of a sudden? im sure you have plenty of other friends you could play with because that excuse you just gave me seemed a little pathetic. those other questions were just out of the blue. so talking about someone else and how much you care about her to me was even more confusing. why do guys do the things they do without realizing? i had my mind off of him for a little when you started talking to me. but it was just a waste of time. im so confused and a little hurt right now. whatever.
i wanna go back to the bahamas (>•_•>)